Hyderabad Blues!!!!

A friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil; but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small, silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely.

                                                                                                                                    -Pam Brown

The most ecstatic, most unexpected, most exciting- overall an outre and by far the most memorable trip of mine was the Hyderabad trip.
Dated :- 24-02-2012 to 27-02-2012.
As expected the period of anxiety had already begun for me when i lay down in my crumpled bed exactly a few hours before the scheduled departure of  my train.
Losing the battle between my left brain and right brain to my left brain i decided not to sleep the entire night. The justification for this decision had probably one more factor that i had the insecurity whether am going to get up on time tomorrow morning or not.
Everything became still and everything became calm, even the clock stopped ticking. So, i took a series of short naps and finally managed to board the train on time.
When the journey started i had no idea that it is going to be the most memorable trip of my life. I finally reached  Hyderabad after struggling with the phone, my novel and the Secunderabad to Hyderabad local. The moment i saw Vishesh with his same rusty Pulsar and big smile on his face, i just had no words to express anything, Just hugged him tight in the first place.
The first day we could only manage to hook up to a few drinks in TGIF. But, we both knew that tomorrow it was going to be a very hectic schedule coz it would be totally dominated by Mr. Ankit Mehrotra,Ramit Mathur, Vishesh Khandelwal and last but not the least Kshitij Saini. As i always said "Bhai aj marne tak piyenge".
The day really kick-started when we went to TGIF(Thank God Its Friday). We were actually on a liquid diet that day.....2 beers down....we went home (successfully)....Then there was more alcohol and more alcohol and more alcohol and finally nobody stood up on their legs.
The status changed from 'tipsy' to 'high' to 'sloshed' to finally 'drowned' and the dialogues went interesting from "lets booze" to "lets go out and get more" to "today i 'm gonna drink till i drop" to "let's get more of it, it's not getting over my mind tonight" to "u 're my brother dude, in fact everyone is"and finally to "i ;'m sleeping, coz u all want me to die".
So, this was the fiesta we had in Hyderabad. Looking more of it when i reach Bangalore.

Love is in the air :)

Love is in the air :)

 Every person i try to reach is busy,
Every person i try to call is waiting,
The girls who loved me are getting married,
Now even the whores have edged towards love. :(

So, Love is in the air :)

Every girl has a couple now and so has each and every guy,
I 'm walking down the street alone with no one by my side,
I could neither find men who could extend their help for sometime:-P
So, I look down to reassure whether have i lost it?


No, It's there :-D

And here the love is in the air again :-)

The ones who broke off are dating as fast as they broke,
Girls have turned realistic and the guys OPPORTUNIST,
Assholes who got married are now expecting, rest still wrecking their beds,
Tears have finally lost their way and make their way down through a different one :-D


Still love is in the air ,
Still love is in the air,
Still love is in the air.
:-P

ThE UnReSt

The unrest between your mind and heart, the unrest between your life and death,

for each passing day you fight with yourself, 

for each passing day you learn something new,

for each passing moment you earn a penny more than you should.

The unrest between your need and greed, the unrest between your calm and anger,

for each job you do you earn a new credit,

for each person you meet offers his own views,

for each place you go to, you find something new.

The unrest between you and your real self, the unrest between your pain and joy,

for each time you fall you find a different reason,

for each game you play turns out to be totally futile,

for each day you wake up, you wake with a different dream.

The unrest between what you do and what you are ought to, the unrest between peace and disharmony,

for every wrong relationship you need not shed tears,

for every dream you see doesn't get fulfilled,
for every time your heart breaks it cannot be recovered.

Posthumous Love :(

Lost my confidence in you, i am still yearning, 

getting over the aftermath, i am still learning, 

Places we used to be together , still hold good in dreams, 

broken i am as you are, still searching my real self in ruins. 

My love for you never turned lame, 

even though you din realize it was forever the same, 

My pursuit for happiness is still in endeavor, 

getting over you or back to you is still in your favor, 

My insomniac eyes says it all, 

i still find you busy and having a ball, 

Though i need you, but, will never express, 

over the time i 'll find ways for my feelings to suppress.

My Love

I keep on sobbing, my pillow becomes wet,

I keep on wandering, my thoughts become wild,

I keep on panicking my, hands become shivery,

I keep on dreading, my past comes aghast,

I keep on looking at her, my eyes become wet,

I keep on thinking, my fantasies become true,

I keep on thinking, my bed becomes my lover,

I ME MYSELF

I FEEL LOW,I FEEL HURT,BUT, I DONT CRY,,
I FIGHT BACK MY TEARS, I FIGHT BACK THE PAIN ,BUT, I DONT BREAK DOWN,,
I SHOW ATTITUDE, I MISBEHAVE, BUT, I AM NOT A BAD PERSON,,
I BREAK HEARTS,I BREAK FRIENDSHIPS ,BUT, I AM NOT A BAD PERSON,,
I FUSS AROUND, I DONT GET ALONG, BUT, I AM NOT A DUMB ASS

sometimes.......

Sometimes i sit besides the tree in my backyard, where i generally used to, and think 

"Have i really become what i wanted to?????"

Did i really work hard for what i wanted to become or it was people's sarcasm that i failed not after trying but failing to try.....

Sometimes i think

"is she the 1 i really loved?????"

Did i really find a girl worth dying for?

Or it was just a level of uncertainty i was going through and grabbed a wrong 1.....

Sometimes i imagine

"Do i really convey the same message to people what i wanted to?????"

Did i really talk to someone the way i should or rather the way i actually wanted to?

Or it was just a flurry of feelings which preoccupied my mind.....

Sometimes i really think what would i had been if i had not been the way i am. today....