sometimes.......

Sometimes i sit besides the tree in my backyard, where i generally used to, and think 

"Have i really become what i wanted to?????"

Did i really work hard for what i wanted to become or it was people's sarcasm that i failed not after trying but failing to try.....

Sometimes i think

"is she the 1 i really loved?????"

Did i really find a girl worth dying for?

Or it was just a level of uncertainty i was going through and grabbed a wrong 1.....

Sometimes i imagine

"Do i really convey the same message to people what i wanted to?????"

Did i really talk to someone the way i should or rather the way i actually wanted to?

Or it was just a flurry of feelings which preoccupied my mind.....

Sometimes i really think what would i had been if i had not been the way i am. today....