My Love

I keep on sobbing, my pillow becomes wet,

I keep on wandering, my thoughts become wild,

I keep on panicking my, hands become shivery,

I keep on dreading, my past comes aghast,

I keep on looking at her, my eyes become wet,

I keep on thinking, my fantasies become true,

I keep on thinking, my bed becomes my lover,

I ME MYSELF

I FEEL LOW,I FEEL HURT,BUT, I DONT CRY,,
I FIGHT BACK MY TEARS, I FIGHT BACK THE PAIN ,BUT, I DONT BREAK DOWN,,
I SHOW ATTITUDE, I MISBEHAVE, BUT, I AM NOT A BAD PERSON,,
I BREAK HEARTS,I BREAK FRIENDSHIPS ,BUT, I AM NOT A BAD PERSON,,
I FUSS AROUND, I DONT GET ALONG, BUT, I AM NOT A DUMB ASS

sometimes.......

Sometimes i sit besides the tree in my backyard, where i generally used to, and think 

"Have i really become what i wanted to?????"

Did i really work hard for what i wanted to become or it was people's sarcasm that i failed not after trying but failing to try.....

Sometimes i think

"is she the 1 i really loved?????"

Did i really find a girl worth dying for?

Or it was just a level of uncertainty i was going through and grabbed a wrong 1.....

Sometimes i imagine

"Do i really convey the same message to people what i wanted to?????"

Did i really talk to someone the way i should or rather the way i actually wanted to?

Or it was just a flurry of feelings which preoccupied my mind.....

Sometimes i really think what would i had been if i had not been the way i am. today....

I WISH IT STAYED :(

EVERY MORNING I SEE A HOPE IN ME BUT IT JUST VANISHES;

I WISH IT STAYED.

EVERY MORNING I ENDEAVOR FOR SOMETHING IT JUST LEAVES ME;

I WISH IT STAYED.

EVERY MORNING I ROAM AROUND IN PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS IT JUST PASSES;

I WISH IT STAYED.

EVERY NIGHT I SEE A DREAM IT JUST  FADES AWAY;

I WISH IT STAYED.

EVERY TIME I FEEL SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME IT JUST GOES AWAY;

I WISH IT STAYED.

EVERY TIME I SLEEP IN BED TO DIE IT JUST WAKES ME UP;

I WISH IT STAYED.

LIFE

INTO THE DARK NIGHT AS I CRAWL;
          ENGAGED WITH THE FEELINGS I BRAWL;
GOING BACK INTO THE DAYS WHEN I WAS A LAD;
         MY LIFE WAS JOYOUS AND NEVER FILLED WITH SAD;
AS THOSE DAYS ARE GONE AND WILL COME BACK NEVER;
        BUT MEMORIES OF THAT TIME WILL REMAIN FOREVER AND EVER;
THE MORE AND MORE I BRING THOSE MEMORIES BACK;
       THE MORE AND MORE I REALIZE THE THINGS I LACK;
SO NEVER MISS THE MEMORIES, NEVER REGRET;
       COZ WE ARE JUST LIVING IT TODAY WHERE IT HAS ALREADY BEEN SET.